Happy Birthday to My Wife!

Today is the 24th anniversary of my wife being born and it brings many thoughts to mind. Is she happy? Is she satisfied with the way her life has turned out with me? While I hope for the best with these questions and I think I know the answers, I really will never truly know. I know what she would say, but I don't know the thoughts behind her words.

You see, we haven't had a lot of money in our marriage.....ever. We constantly are dealing with bills and collectors which takes its toll on any marriage. I feel like we have handled it with the best of 'em. It has gotten to the point where this year, I can't even afford to buy her a birthday present. I can't express how devastating this is for me. She has always put together amazing birthdays for me and I have no way of reciprocating that for her this year. It is the second lowest I have ever felt when it comes to my ability to provide for my family. I try to put on a good front and put on a happy face because all we have right now is a happy face.

I love my wife. With everything I have, I love my wife. She deals with me and everything that comes with that...... she is a saint. If you don't know her, she is gorgeous, fun, caring, forgiving, and she actually beat me in basketball (anyone who really knows me, knows thats a prophecy come true). If you met her, you would want her to be the mother of your kids too.

So on this day of celebrating birth, I want to thank my wife for being born and using that life to enrich mine. I am so grateful for my life and it is simply because of her. I want to tell her that I love her no matter what happens in our life and that she could never do anything to decrease my love for her. I want her to know that even though I can't buy her a present this year, I promise to do better for every year to come. I want to tell her that I'm sorry if this is the worst birthday ever. I want her to know that I don't care about the scars.......oh wait that's the Dark Knight. Bad movie quote. I want her to know I am sorry for ruining every good moment with stupid stuff like that "becuase that's what we do. We fight! You call me a ***** and I tell you when you're being a pain in the ***!" -Notebook, much better. I want her to know I love her...... maybe she already knows these things...... maybe she just found out.

I love you baby! <-- *bedazzled*